Ein was my sister, when i wrote was, it meant she's no longer around. Today might have been her birthday, 35th birthday to be exact. I miss her, she passed away due to kidney failure on the 3rd of Eid-ul Fitri.She kept her illness as a secret from her friends and collegues, even her boss did not know of her illness. She wanted to stay away from the dialysis machine, she'll only taken the homeopathic treatment, we were very concerned about her, but she refuses to seek treatment at the hospital, even though she works there!
Geram sangat kat dia masa tu, tapi dia mmg bertekad tak nak pi spital, dia tak nak lepas treatment jadi letih, dia tak nak kami tgk dia tak berdaya..
She's very attached to my mom, tak nak kerja jauh2 sebab nak duduk dkt mak, kalau mak tidur, dia le akan picit kaki mak, she always give foot treatment to my auntie, mmg tak dapat le merasa layanan macam tu lepas ni..Pasal duit dia mmg tak berkira, untuk mak, she'll try to give her anything she asks for, tapi dia takkan habiskan duit untuk dia sendiri. Masa dia meninggal, mom read her diary, she did all the calculations to bring us to perform umrah...menitis air mata mak baca diary Ein.
Ingatkan bila dah bertahun dia pergi, kita akan lupakan dia, tapi tak rupanya..ingatan terhadap dia masih kuat...and lately bila aku pi meeting dkt Nursing Faculty, i will remember her even more, ada sorang staff kat situ yg mmg resemble Ein, masa mula2 pi meeting i had a shock when i saw her, rasa sebak serta merta, bila dah jumpa kali kedua baru le aku rasa berani nak mintak amik gambar dia utk tunjuk mak... Menangis mak bila tgk gambar tu, mmg serupa..mak kata nak jumpa dia...aku agak mak rindu kat EIn...
Al-Fatihah for my dear sister, Nur Asyikin..
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Sayunya.. Al-Fatihah for her
Sedih nya baca entry kali ni. Org baik memang cam tu lah Syima. Allah lebih sayang kat dia. Di ambil nya dia, di tempat kan di tempat yang lebih mulia. Al fatihah buat Ein. Mana boleh lupa. Bak kata omputih, there is "no closure". Absolutely not. Tapi kita harus rela, ikhlas. Tak perlu bimbang lagi bila dia pergi kerja, bila dia balik malam, siapa kawan2 dia. We know she is now safe. Hugs to you, selamat berpuasa utk Syima sekeluarga.
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